Down in the Dumps...

I am, I simply am.

I went to see my youngest this evening.
He's back in jail.
He was doing so well too.

He goes in front of the judge tomorrow morning.
He could be taken off Drug Court and sent upstate.
For seven and a half years!

Honestly, I am devastated.
Living in a halfway house, he was accused of flushing dope down the toilet by four others
He says he didn't do it, but he took the blame for it.

This landed him back in jail.

Months of clean urines, drug free blood tests and trying to find a job and FINALLY getting one...
And he's back in jail with the threat of being sent upstate for seven and a half years...
Seven and a half years...
Seven and a half years...

He was doing so well, really he was, his life had taken that turn in the RIGHT direction...
And now this...

OMG, why have you forsaken me? him?
Just when things started to look up for him...

I counseled my son on what to say to the judge tomorrow morning.
Simply walk through the facts... inform him of your side of the incident at the halfway house...
When making your decision to remove me from Drug Court, please consider the entire picture and your experience with me and permit me to continue along the path to a good life.

Dear Lord, as you know I am not easily fooled and have been firm in my choices with my son and his drug addiction.  I believe him this time.  I witnessed a changed young man this time.  A man who was on his way to a happy and good life.  I am at your mercy and ask that your will be done, however, I pray that your will is one that sees my son get a chance to continue along the road he worked hard to build to recovery.  Please let the judge consider the entire picture and realize the negative impact sending him upstate will cause.  Please, in your mercy, continue to allow my son to toe the line and gain back his life.  We have suffered so much with this addiction.  Don't let us suffer another seven and a half years.  I pray for your mercy and love and for the strength to get through this.

<3 , M