This life of mine, like others', is full of ebbs and flows.
Ebbs
First couple of months of 2013 were full of celebrations;
impending nuptials and all things that go with that,
welcoming a new grandson (and all the drama that went with that),
and now, I turn yet another page in my life book...
another chapter...
Last Wednesday evening, after saying to us he was
heading out to a friend's house, he never returned home.
I awoke at 2:30am and noticed his bedroom door open,
no Andrew.
I awoke at 6am and noticed his bedroom door still open,
no Andrew.
I left the front door unlocked so he could get in.
Quickly realized I didn't need to leave it opened for his
return home, as he didn't return home that evening at all.
About 9:30am I received a call at work from hubby.
He was yelling at me, rather he was yelling into the phone,
"Where do you think he is?"
I, of course, calmly said, "Jail."
Do you have any idea how tired I am of being right????? I was right.
Oh, it gets better....
he wanted dad-eee-ooo to put up bail to which dad-eee-ooo
replied with a resounding.... "F.... U...!"
What was relayed to me was dear son was caught trying to
buy drugs from an undercover cop at the trolley stop.
Dear hubby has finally had enough. He said no to all requests.
I must admit, I am happy that hubby has finally come to his senses
and is fed up.
Oh, it gets better....
Got a call this Wednesday from my oldest daughter.
One of her friends texted her a link to the local paper.
Right there on page four, under a headline about the
Drug Task Force Sting Operation catching three in their
township-wide sting... is a wonderful mug shot of dear son!
I quickly say to daughter, sorry, have to call nana. Her bestie
reads that rag cover to cover every morning. I have to warn her.
As I call nana, I pull up the article online and see dear son's
mug shot and read the article.
I am sick to my stomach.... seems some facts are untrue while
others tell a wee bit more details of the sting.
Sonny boy was not trying to buy drugs, instead he tried to sell drugs.
It gets better...
of a schedule II narcotic no less.... with the intent to distribute.
I know, you won't believe it could get any better, but it does...
in PA, there's a The Controlled Substance, Drug, Device and Cosmetic Act
and if caught within 1000 feet of a school, if convicted, there's a mandatory
2 year sentence.
His luck, I think the trolley stop is just within 1000 feet of the local
grade school....
It's sad, so sad... it's a sad, sad situation... and it's getting more and more absurd.
http://youtu.be/SY0z-BKhefY
I HATE HEROIN... not the addict, the drug.
This drug has caused the lives
of so many innocent people and addicts a living hell.
To my faithful readers, all one or two of you, I cannot stress enough the
importance of educating your children to stay away from drugs,
but more specifically HEROIN. The very first time someone says Yes
and experiments with it, they immediately become an addict. This drug is a killer.
Killer of addicts, killer of loved ones of addicts, killer of countless happy lives.
Never, ever try this drug or you will be signing your life away.
Flows
My youngest, in his struggle with herion addiction,
has continued down that downward spiral that so many
heroin drug addicts walk...
I have this pit in my stomach as I realize, he will be
one of the 97%. They are the ones who never conquer
this addiction and succumb to it.
In order to gain any peace, they overdose or commit
suicide to get away from this heinous killer.
I can see my son's life going down that spiral...
and I am not one bit happy about it, not one bit.
Please pray for him and us.
I'm so sorry that you are going through this. I know how it feels as when my son was arrested for his second aggravated DWI and drugs it was on the local news. I was mortified seeing his mug shot. There is hope for your son, this arrest was the turning point for my son in his addiction. He has nine months clean time right now and is under the strict supervision of the court. I was at a Nar-Anon meeting last night and one of the ladies shared how being arrested and spending time in jail was the turning point for her son as well. I will be keeping you and your family and your son in my prayers. I hate heroin too the only thing that is just as bad if not worse is crystal meth.
ReplyDeleteErin, thanks for your kind words of encouragement but I am not hopeful this is his turning point. He just got off parole the week before and with all drug addicts' stories, it's convoluted and complex. I have held hope many times over in his struggle only to be let down. I need to get to a Nar-Anon meeting and see if this will help me with coping with this whole mess. I cannot change it, it's out of my control... this much I know. I can only change my reaction and that which is in my control. I certainly don't like being in this position. It sucks, it's sad and it's epidemic. So many young lives are lost to heroin.
ReplyDeleteAgain, my thanks for reading and reaching out to me. If nothing else, it does help to know that as much as I feel it, I am NOT ALONE.
Have a wonderful day.
I am sorry to see this. Many of know what it like to see something in the paper like that. We live in a small town connected to the lager Kansas City area. There is a little weekly newspaper called the Basehor Sentinel and the shock is devastating to pick up the paper and see the name "Grover" on the front page, and it isn't for doing some good community service deed.
ReplyDeleteI second your feeling. I HATE HEROIN!!! I HATE DRUGS!!! I HATE ALL THIS SHIT!!!
Thanks for your response. As sad as it sounds, it's good to know that others are out there that can totally sympathize but hate the fact that it is so.
ReplyDeleteThis drug problem is epidemic and is killing countless lives, not just those lives of the addicts.
My sympathy and prayers are with you and your family.
ReplyDeleteStay strong mon ami, there's always hope.
Thanks MK. So nice to hear from an old, and I mean OLD, friend.
ReplyDeleteI think my bucket of hope is just about spent. I am tired of all the let downs, if ya catch my drift.