We Celebrated Baby M's Mama!

What a lovely day spent celebrating Baby M and his/her Mama...

Just about 6 weeks remain til we meet Baby M, so excited!

Enjoy the photos...

And here's Baby M's Mama with Baby M's cousin 

snugglin' up to find out when Baby M will come out and play.

I am looking forward to having something happy to celebrate 

on Apirl 15 v. the loss of my son's girlfriend to heroin in 2015.

We miss you Crystal.

One More Day...

Well, actually, it's four more days...
Four more days until my son, who's been incarcerated for the last 10 months, comes home.

He comes home, to start anew.
He comes home, to nightmares of what happened at home before he was sent away.
He comes home, to battle his addiction.
He comes home, to fight an uphill battle.
He comes home, to leave the past in the past.
He comes home, to face the stigma of incarceration, addiction and whatever else goes with it.
He comes home, to work hard to get the life he deserves.
He comes home, to a family that loves him.
He comes home, to me.


And so, my maternal instinct to worry about him will return.  I will try to keep it at bay.  I know I have no control over his decisions, his life, his actions.  I will try to let go and let God.  I will try to be supportive, yet not enabling.

Allowing him to come back to our home places a heavy burden on my husband and me.  Our home has to be a certain way, rules and regulations... and yes, we have agreed to these inconveniences 
in the hope that he has a fresh start, 
in the hope he can overcome the negativity that he will face
in the hope that he can overcome his addiction
in the hope that he never uses heroin again
in the hope that our support will see him onto a happy, successful life
in the hope for the best possible outcome for him.
You see, we still have hope.

And so, my dear reader, four more days, until my son comes home...

I could use your prayers.

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Splish Splash I Was Doing The Backsplash

its been a long road but I am almost done. What do you think?  Should I keep my day job?  

Didn't Make It To Round 2...

It's the story of my life...

Yet another job within the company that I didn't get.  

I know I shouldn't think negatively, but really... I am so disappointed... beyond words.  I feel like a total failure and loser...

I know I should learn from my failures but I am tired of trying.  I hate giving almost 14 years of my life to this company... and I can't advance or move along.

I am in a rutt, I am stuck, I am just plain done.

Okay, pity party over.

After Dallas Comes Baby M!

This year it was in Dallas.

Now I must focus on Baby M's arrival, coming quickly, only 10 weeks away!

Planning the baby shower is enjoyable but trying to let the other daughter do as mush as possible in planning so she feels good about throwing it and I don't come across as Momzilla!

It will have a giraffe theme (as the baby mama loves giraffes and the nursery is decorated in that theme).

Color scheme is yellow, gray and white.

We are going to all be surprised at Baby M's gender when he/she makes his/her debut.  The mama and da decided to be surprised...

As of now, I have 3 beautiful grand SONS... and our family has not had a little girl in the family for 28 years... soooooooooooooo... can you guess what I am hoping Baby M's gender will be?

Go ahead, take a guess in the comment section.  

I promise I will let you know if you guessed correctly!

Promise!